...and it took me quite a bit to get my pride in check to admit that... and i apologise....
ironically it was samseesam that made me ask myself "what in the world am i doing?" when his reply to my saying this place is becoming another v44.com was that i was becoming another nobby.....
and me_here pretty much summed up the reason for my posts in the last post she made before locking the thread; fear that KM was leaving... among other things....
and i will admit GS... that even though you do massive amounts of work to help users ive never really quite liked you.... i dont know why; call it bad vibes i guess... its nothing personal; ive just had a bad feeling since day one of being here... and the thought of KM not there to keep things 'democratic' was not a pleasing feeling even tho i do like me_here.... with that in mind i hope you can at least have an understanding of why that alone was worrying.... if it was just me_here running the place that wouldnt have bothered me quite as bad but still wouldnt have been pleasing... and yes; i apologise for the little snap i made at you me_here.... but saying that you were ignoring ceartain posts made me feel like something was going on that you didnt care for the users to know about.... which was incredibly worrying...
also GS, you said i come across as 'rude' ... yes... that one i will admit to... most everything i say will sound 'rude' or 'cold' to a few ppl... its just the way i am.... granted its no 'excuse'... but its the way i am... and before you feel left out, yes, i even apologise to you....
and now you KM; please, please, please dont scare the living crap out of me like that again... please?
and finally to all; i said in that thread that i would leave when my questions were answered... my questions have been answered but since it seems as tho KM is calming down (hopefully) i would like to stay.... but if any of you (GS, MH & KM) would prefer me to keep my original promise i will leave... ball's in your court now....
